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Posts tagged with 'verging on insanity'

• • With respect...you just don't fucking try
  • by shakeberry
    

  • in jadedreprobate.blog.co.uk

  • 2 days old
  • ~edited because 12 people think its to them...ffs~ I'm vaguely in the mood for anyone, maybe one or two people...depends, my new appointment is now the 27th of May, they brought it forward 2 weeks...no idea why, I'm worried as I have less than 2 weeks to be all open again...fuck fuck fuck...takes me 3 at least. I also have to make a choice on... more
  • Tags: + about you , + bullshitters , + crazy mind , + friends , + life , + mental , + moods , + peeved , + people , + what crap i write
• • The Epiphany of Berry
  • by shakeberry
    

  • in jadedreprobate.blog.co.uk

  • 3 days old
  • Well seeing as I am in this kind of mood I might as well blog this crap in my head. I confuse people sometimes, ok about me been closed off...this means in person I would never tell you any of the shit in my blog, if i want my neighbours to drop dead you;d never know, if I was angry at how my "friends" have treated me...you'd not know. I write.... more
  • Tags: + lonely , + mental , + moods , + people , + what crap i write
• • The diagnosis revealed.
  • by shakeberry
    

  • in jadedreprobate.blog.co.uk

  • 4 days old
  • That there is the hand written diagnosis I was given today, the one i was dreading, the one thing I hoped for the last 3 years wasn't true...I will get an official letter by the end of the week confirming that I infact have Bipolar Affective Disorcer and Borderline Personality Disorder I'm unsure what to think, what to say to you all or even... more
  • Tags: + life , + lonely , + mental , + what crap i write
• • The aftermath...
  • by shakeberry
    

  • in jadedreprobate.blog.co.uk

  • 5 days old
  • I wanted to blog last night, then this morning and then this afternoon...only what I want to say in words wouldn't come out...I wanted to tell you about my day out, and my night...but I felt I couldn't open up here. I thought I found in someone I could confide in, and sometimes it seems appropiate, but something doesn't feel right and I can't... more
  • Tags: + crazy , + friends , + life , + life sucks , + lonely , + mental , + moods , + people , + sleep , + what crap i write
• • Far Canal
  • by shakeberry
    

  • in jadedreprobate.blog.co.uk

  • 6 days old
  • Ok after a day of thinking, I came to the conclusion, that I didn't see things too clearly yesterday. I;m not seeing them too clearly now, but that's not a big issue. My issue is this...What I have written here about, my ex knows I write this...he doesn't know the addy as luckily he's rather dimwitted with computers. But he once read it a few... more
  • Tags: + crazy , + friends , + life , + lonely , + meds , + mental , + moods , + what crap i write
• • Wait then as my heart drops
  • by shakeberry
    

  • in jadedreprobate.blog.co.uk

  • 8 days old
  • not a great afternoon, i just found out my friend lost her baby, and someone just let me down big time...(i overreacted) Yep yep, I must stop trying to be a different person. I must stay like I am...that you're so disappointed in everyone and everything, when they do something nice, good or spectacular you are rather stunned and smile. I just... more
  • Tags: + crazy , + life , + meds , + people , + what crap i write
• • Autumn, Republic, Cheech and AK47's
  • by shakeberry
    

  • in jadedreprobate.blog.co.uk

  • 11 days old
  • I can't sleep, I've had 2 hours in 2 days, but I'm ok, just mellow. I'm pondering on a few thoughts, the truth is in front of me, and I have to look at in face on. I am losing a lot of the good things in my life, through my own self giving up on stuff. I have to change my life drastically, but where to start is another matter, I have love from... more
  • Tags: + crazy mind , + dream , + friends , + life , + love , + meds , + mental , + people , + sergio , + what crap i write
• • The Perfect Mix
  • by shakeberry
    

  • in jadedreprobate.blog.co.uk

  • 12 days old
  • I mixed meds today, see how I would feel, because frankly my moods are up, down, up, down...not coolio, so I took whole bunch of shit, not overdosed, just a couple over a period of 2 hours...I feel refreshingly happy..I can't hear the crowd noises and I feel quite normal. I'm going to continue this until wednesday when I have to visit the Doc... more
  • Tags: + crazy , + family , + hayfever , + ketchup , + life , + mental , + what crap i write
• • Right here...
  • by shakeberry
    

  • in jadedreprobate.blog.co.uk

  • 17 days old
  • I keep having internet probs. I keep not sleeping, I keep thinking how do I get enough money to get me through next week.. I can't talk to anyone, I'm having a complete shut down...or maybe I'm changing. I've dropped another dress size, because I barely eat. I ate some stuff from my package, and half a sandwich. Yet I still look a fat bastard.... more
  • Tags: + crazy , + kids , + life , + lonely , + mental , + moods , + peeved , + what crap i write
• • My Soul Pleads For You.....
  • by shakeberry
    

  • in jadedreprobate.blog.co.uk

  • 19 days old
  • I get caught up somedays in my whole crappy moods, not long now before my proper assessment...I had an assessment 2 years ago, but they wanted me on some stuff that made me zombiefied. So i finally get a new assessment to see how much meds I truly need. I found this list because my doctor gave me some websites for me to look at...but I said why?... more
  • Tags: + crazy mind , + life , + lonely , + mental , + moods , + peeved , + what crap i write