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- Bugger?
- by whoknows
- in virtueorsin.blog.co.uk
- 105 days old
- No phonecalls from Steve last night, and as we had a date for a dirty phonecall I phoned him about 10.30. It was either switched off or he had no reception. Same this morning. Now if it is switched off, then he is probably with Lauren, but what worries me is that he's supposed to be starting work this morning at 7.30. His phone was still off... more
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- HOW many phone calls???
- by whoknows
- in virtueorsin.blog.co.uk
- 106 days old
- So last night I was supposed to be sleeping early cos of my course. But then I got to blogging, and watching Doctor Who, and being all excited and whatever, so in the end I didn't get to bed until about 10.30. Steve had phoned and said he was fine, and him and Ricky were going for a drink. He was planning on staying there for the night, because... more
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- What am I doing?
- by whoknows
- in virtueorsin.blog.co.uk
- 107 days old
- Thursday morning, and only two hours sleep, but for some reason Steve got up with me - VERY unusual. I ahd a shower and he made tea, then we sat drinking it and chatting. Before I left I said to him, 'I really , really like you.' He said, 'I love you,' and I replied, 'no, you know I love you, but I'd forgotten just how much I like you.' It was... more
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- Let the Games Begin!
- by whoknows
- in virtueorsin.blog.co.uk
- 107 days old
- Steve phoned me back and said he'd got the job, at a hotel in the Lakes and he starts on Monday morning. They wanted him to move in there on Sunday, so he was hitching down tomorrow (Wednesday) to get his stuff. Now it just so happened that my son was going to his Dad's for Wednesday night, for a birthday hog roast, so it all seemed to be fated... more
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- What happened on Tuesday
- by whoknows
- in virtueorsin.blog.co.uk
- 107 days old
- Well I couldn't help but be worried about Steve when I heard nothing more from him on Monday, what with the phone call of Sunday. I told myself that he was surely staying with Lauren and so was safe, but it was horrible not knowing. I was really worried, but didn't realise how much so until he phoned on Tuesday while I was with a patient. I... more
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- No Regrets
- by whoknows
- in virtueorsin.blog.co.uk
- 113 days old
- At one point on Friday Steve said to me, 'I'm so sorry you wasted 18 months on me.' I told him I wasn't sorry, I was grateful for every minute. It took him 27 years and me 41 years to find a love like ours. Him throwing it away doesn't mean the time was wasted. more
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- Why I Still Worry
- by whoknows
- in virtueorsin.blog.co.uk
- 113 days old
- I know that Steve feels very guilty for how he has treated me, and the heroin means that he is cycling from mellowness and euphoria to depression and fear. On his downers he talks about how he hates himself, how his life always gets wrecked, how he is suicidal. I've tried to get him to take responsibility for his own life - that if it is shit it... more
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- What I Think Now
- by whoknows
- in virtueorsin.blog.co.uk
- 113 days old
- When I met Steve, he was an alcoholic, living with a girl he said he didn't love, having a life going out with his mates, and being looked after by a woman who didn't challenge him or bother him because if she did he'd just leave. He two-timed her because he could, with women he cared for only marginally more than he did her. Then he met me. He... more
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- Oh What a Night!
- by whoknows
- in virtueorsin.blog.co.uk
- 113 days old
- This is friends only because I have promised Steve I'll not discuss it with Lauren, and she has the address of this blog. After I wrote last I went to sleep for a bit, then watched 'Notes on a Scandal', which was good, but had been 'obvioused up' for a mass audience, and lacked the subtlety of the book. Then I went off to bed. I was woken by the... more
